This week I lost "things" in my life; "things" I thought were solid, stable, unmovable in my life. But, in 1 week they were gone, never to be looked back on. I was unable to get into a school this semester....college was taken from me. Two days later, my job was taken from me. No longer will I see that girl who always wears cute heels walking to class in front of me on campus, no more will I here the laugh of my co-workers during the down times. This, completely made me want to lock myself away and throw away the key, hoping no one would ever find me.
However, instead, I held my head up...closed my eyes, and thanked God that I was still in the city He had me working so diligently for His glory. I went to Step Up weekend right after I lost my job. This is where we spend 2 days with up-coming 6th graders to get them more comfortable with being in the youth group. Well, I can't speak for anyone else, but God showed up in my heart.
I know I am where He wants me. And no, I don't have bedroom furniture, a bed, cable, hot water....and yes I hang dry my clothes, sit in the dark, and eat food from Big Lots and the Dollar Store.......but how does that even begin to compare with what His followers went through. And who needs all that stuff? Not me....all I need is my church family, and most importantly, my God. After losing my job, I wasn't sure how I would pay the bills this month. In 3 days: I have sold 4 large textbooks, recieved 2 calls about babysitting, and had my church family supporting me and praying me through my tough times. If that aint God showing up in a small girl's life, then I don't know what would be.
I am thankful for the tragedies I faced this week. Because without them, how would I be moving on to the next step in His perfect plan for my life....and the perfect step to bring Him glory.
Sometimes we just have to have it all taken away to see what all we have.
