Together: it was all we'd ever need.

Everyday I wipe my tears away
So many nights I've prayed for you to say:I should've been chasing you
I should've been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should've said all the things that I kept inside of me
And maybe I could've made you believe
That what we had was all we'd ever need.

I cried myself to sleep. All night I tossed and I turned. I called for you, I screamed, you never came. As I awoke to the sun pooring into my bedroom, just as in my nightmare, you were no where to be found.

I would like to say that you only left me in my dreams, my nightmares, but reality is that you just left me. I don't speak of these feelings anymore. No one wants to hear what is going on inside my heart on your behalf. They are right when they say to move on, but my heart hasn't grasped the concept yet.

Many days I find myself still staring down the road, out the window, or just into the sky. I think, today, today will be the day you come back. I still want to believe that you are coming back for me. But as the nightmares speak, you are never going to turn around.

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Even sleeping beauty has nightmares...

I close my eyes and I see it. The torture, the tears, the smiles fading into distance. Nightmares. The ones that grip you in fear and drowned you in darkness. Never remembering what occures inside the darkness, I awake, terrorized, my head screaming his name. Pleading him to stay and not to leave me. Each time, reaching over and realizing he is gone. Never to return. Night after night, day after day, this bad ending to the worst movie replays in my head. I miss him. I'm haunted by the sound of his voice trailing off into the unknown distnace. Only to revisit me as soon as I close my eyes.

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