Memories, they can hit you at the most random times. They can bring the biggest heartache one can bear in a single moment....a split second, a single thought, the sight of something seen a million times before; these things can tear you apart within no time.
My favorite thing is to see the sun setting. The colors bold, bright, and warming up the entire sky...makes my heart feel more than anything else in the world.
Tonight, driving home from getting takeout, I saw the sunsetting for the 7000th time; but tonight it was a memory that the sun set on. Tonight I was reminded on the summer of 2011 when I would run screaming at Jon Hardin or text him yelling in excitement....and I went to grab my phone (which I had left at home by mistake) to text him and say "Look! Look! The sky is beautiful!!! :)" Bursting into tears, I thought of all the comebacks he would have sent to me in that moment. As tears streaked my face and my vision of that sunset blurred my heart missed him SO much. I still miss so much, everyday. No matter how much I ignore the fact that he is gone, or I am hurting, or that those things will never change....I still miss him.
If only text messages could reach Heaven and be sent back down....maybe then the loss of someone I love so much wouldn't hurt so bad.
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