Change Everything.

"In life, you never know what the next day may bring."

One year. powerful words, even more powerful reality. One year can change everything about you. One year can take you from who you thought you were to who you want to be. One year, can take you from the lowest moments in life to the top of your life's mountain. This year has been one of those transforming years for my life.
Last year at this time, I was a state of suicide, attempting to take my life two times before any one around me could hear my cries for help. It was a time of pure blackness in my life. As if I had slipped into a black hole of misery, regret, and depression that I would never escape. There was no point in being here, on earth, any longer...I just wanted to go home, to heaven and my maker.
I had begun to hurt myself physically...burning (form of cutting). It wasn't because I didn't know it was wrong, I did. It was more because I could explain, see, and ignore the pain produced from the burns. As I would take the needle and heat it over a candle flame alone in my bathroom, a sense of knowing would over come me only to relapse into severe sadness as the burn would form on my arm.
Returning to school, this sadness only heightened and I began to think of suicide. No one around me saw, no one heard my silent cries, and no one seemed to care that I felt the need to end...everything,
Finally, one friend broke the barrier and answered the cries. He walked with me as I took steps to deal with my pain in non-self destructive ways and let me talk about my scariest thoughts. The night I last attempted to throw myself off a high walking bridge, it was his phone call [sent by my Jesus] that saved me. It also awoke a small flame of burning hope inside my black hole.
Since that moment, I have been through 8 weeks of therapy and finished another semester of college. I have also found {thanks to God} someone who makes me live in happy instead of living to be happy. I have an "adopted" family whom I love for showing me what a family can really be like. I thank God for answering my cries for help and sending that one friend in the moment of the darkest of dark. Because of that, I can write this and live strong in the days to come.
One year, can change everything about you.

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