just writing...

Dreams dont always come true...

I close my eyes and let my thoughts of you flow. I carry on a conversation in my mind between us two, as we tell of our hopes our dreams ... all the 'what ifs', if only we could do that. I picture us lying in your bed, your arms around me, my head upon your chest; my fingers gently circle over your skin. My soft lips place a whisper of a kiss on your neck. I can hear the beating of your heart getting louder and faster. In my mind, your lips capture me and hold me there in ecstasy. We look in each other's eyes, lost...no, found. I feel your hands caress over me as you whisper against my ear. You sweetly kiss me over and over and then wipe away a tear. A slight laugh, mixed with a cry, such beautiful feelings....I sigh. Each time that you touch me, feels like the very first time.

As each night passes, your presence seems more real here with me, but then I open my eyes and realize it was all just another dream. Tears fall from my eyes. Pain sears through my chest. My heart is crying out for you. You do not hear my call, for you are in a distant place. You are here, only in my dreams.

I have tried so hard to fight these feelings I enclose, but I can't do it. I know that I love you, but I didn't want to tell you at first, only because I didn't want my heart to hurt, yet; I can't stop feeling this way. I am so in love with you and this feeling grows deeper and deeper each day.

We only knew each other for a short time but you already have me completely and totally to yourself. I don't even want to think about being with anyone else. I thought that if I stopped talking to you, I would forget how I felt...I thought that if I could keep myself busy, I would be okay, but I can't forget and I'm not okay. I am overwhelmed with feelings for you. I need to hear your voice. I need to feel your touch. I need you. Nevertheless, most importantly, I love you.