No Goodbye

Tell Me This Isn't Goodbye...

I heard the words escape your mouth, the vibrations of your voice pierced my ear drums like daggers. But even then, I couldn't believe the idea my mind was processing as you spoke. Tears rolled down my cheeks as slowly my senses came together and I understood our whole lives were about to change forever. You looked at me with eager eyes, smiling. I knew this, this was what was best for you. I only wished what was best for you was not what would destroy me. I wished what was best for you was not leaving me. I smiled back at you and reminded you of how proud of you I was, as the words left my tongue my heart stung with anger, sadness, and despair. You were the one who had made it so easy to live the last 5 months. In an instant we had become best friends and now even closer, if that was possible. And in an instant, all of that was to be ripped apart. Your moving. Away from me, away from us, away from a future that could have been. You told me you plan to come back for me and I would never be without you. I have heard it all before and it's never a two way street...maybe this time something will change. Prove to me your not all the same. I promise not to say goodbye, for goodbyes are forever and I never want to see forever without you by my side.

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